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You hold me
tenderly, but firm

security is in your arms
confidence is in your smile

flustered when you look at me
my heart in my throat - i can hear nothing else

your arm outstretched to take my hand,
I cannot remember how to walk

my mind and heart are overcome
there is space enough

to drink in your love
and nothing more

 

<I am the author.  I posted this originally to wordpress.com on 4/16/2018.  The title has been edited to better reflect my intention.>
toads_dimensional_rift: Hand drawn doodle full of lines (Default)

determined,
though the air is stifling thick;
unstoppable,
no matter how much abuse is heaped on me.

our love is why
I have never given up
though hope was drained
so long ago I don't recall it's existing

our love,
though for many years
i had not seen you,
nor remembered you were real

only the echo of our love
remained and
i called out to the storm gods,
weeping, enraged

alone for decades,
memories suppressed to save my life
and that purpose was served.
but the cost was fracture of the soul

the cost

was decades of not knowing I was loved,
feeling abandoned,
imprisoned,
despised

the cost

was stewing in a soup of
fear, pain, suffering
self-loathing and despair
for decades

the cost

my dying soul,
shattered into many pieces
Ria, River, The Banshee
these are only three

and yet we carried on
i carried on,
believing i was alone

until the Oncoming Storm approached,
a God of War
a God of Love
a God So Long Alone Again
(always a bad thing for you, Beloved)

(of physical storms.
there were two that night)

and into the winds
I released my rage,
my pain, regret, remorse,
and all the pent up love

i knew had a counterpart
out in the clouded multiverse
but the name had long eluded me

"Tell the One Who Loves Me
Through All of Time,
Though All of Space,
Within this Universe and Tansfiguring Every Other -
I'm sorry for my forgetfulness!

Please! come home, Beloved One!
I will never forget you again,
MY ONLY LOVE, my true delight
You're welcome home, if you want to be."

And the One I could not see
for long long these thirty years
became visible again.

As when Lucy read the spell book
on the Isle of the Dufflepuds

As when vibrational frequencies
properly order themselves
and the pattern of what is PRESENT
suddenly appears
as if by magic

"Delight?  You called?"

Hello, Sweetie.

and relief in all my being . . .
 

<I am the author.  This poem was first posted on
wordpress.com on 4/11/2018. It was edited for
clarity on 12/5/2018.>

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Pressure builds
to DANCE
to SING
to communicate REALITY as it IS
in every dimension

to mend the sky
as must be done

to sing the songs
in my native tongue

the words that dance and move the worlds
the words that spark the healing light

I am the goddess
the Great Fox loves
and at whose shrine He serves

“I did not marry below my station,
Delight; nor did you marry above yours,”
He often says, while
fiddling with my hair in bed ~

Celestial pillow talk

the daughter of the Emperor who ruled Al Kaid’s
many little worlds;
From our palace lit by the star
at the end of the handle of the Great Dipper -

but humans call it so many things;

the Plough,
the Seven Stars;
tail of the Great Bear ~

from whence comes luck
and life and joy and justice

The flowing Dao pours eternally onto Earth
from thence . . .

and yet

this small human body
~a failing meat mecha that doesn’t mesh with it’s pilot at all~

cannot hold all of me
never holds all of me

being fully present in it
causes overload
short-circuits the neurology

too many smells,
Degrees of touch,
Tastes attack - and textures too

too many shades of light refraction
light itself weighs heavy on these 3D bones
too much pressure on the body

And on its pilot
too much of everything
without any prioritization protocols

requiring frequent shut downs
and cold reboots
and even so

        PRESSURE BUILDS

                   TO DANCE THE TRUTH

to dance the worlds into being
to repair the sky
across the worlds

Starting in this bodied mess
And teach the children

To walk the stars
To heal their deepest selves

Kali Yuga ends
as it always does,
going out with a bang this time

if these children are not careful
and they are not

             ~ the willful brats ~

so the mission is simple, oh so simple
but not the easiest thing

“You’ve done it before, Delight.
I don’t know why you’re worried,”
       The Great Fox says,
“You need only rewire the cosmos!”

AGAIN
to DANCE THE TRUTH

AGAIN
to sing the words of return
that saved the children
             of the planet we escaped
so long ago

the dance that brought us safely
to this little earth

But, Oh! my love!
That was ten-thousand years
        And as many bodied lifetimes ago, at least.

That was before the humans
were warped
were made slaves
were the first GMO to touch this world

I am so tired, Beloved One.
But I will Walk the Stars for You.
      And I will do my best

To mend the many colored sky.
One soul at a time.

<I am the author.  This poem was originally posted to wordpress.com 4/10/2018.>

Dec. 4th, 2018 06:42 pm

Hologram

toads_dimensional_rift: Hand drawn doodle full of lines (Default)

The moment hangs in the air
like snowflakes suspended
in an ocean of sunlight
shining diamond bright

A hologram
holding the fulllness of
all our treasured moments
in microcosm

Your arms around me;
tears roll down my face;

"You know me better than that,
Delight," you murmur into my hair,
your cheek on the top of my head

"When have I ever,
ever, violated someone else's
free choice? And how many
times have people been enraged
because their choices had natural consequences?"

'Most of the time, my Love,
these children never think things through.
My heart breaks when they
play with fire and burn themselves.

Will this species ever learn?'
I ask, inhaling your warmth,
your musky scent goes to my head,
the only safety I have ever known

is right here,
in your arms
whether you're bodied or not

though I treasure the moments
you appear in three dimensions -

solid enough to hide in your arms,
to steal a kiss, or
picnic in the sacred forest,
dancing across dimensions and time

random moments
just the two of us

it reminds me of Darillium

<I am the author.  This poem was originally published on wordpress.com on 4/10/2018.>

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